Dare to play the game

The last weeks were tough. I spent almost all my time looking for new work. Yes, the 6-to-2 job that paid my bills so I could live as an artist is gone.

Even though the timing was not ideal, it was time for it to happen. While it was not my original plan, I adapted to it because it provided ample free time for writing, designing and research.

Life and my soul warned me many times, but I refused to listen. I had invested a lot of time and energy in learning to see the positive side of a job at the antipodes of my professional field and my life expectations.

In an attempt to accept reality and focus on the positive, I inadvertently included an unwanted scenario in my comfort zone, not of my soul, but of my mind.

If we compare them to teams, Life and my soul would be on one side, playing a friendly match against the opposing team, which includes My reality and mind.

In this sporting analogy, I preferred to be the referee, controlling both teams. However, most of the time, I feel more like the ball rolling from one side of the playing field to the other, unable to decide where I want to go or how I want to move.

Two teams, yes. But two teams that are not at the same level.

Let’s be honest. Can we trust a mind held captive by imposter syndrome and constantly living in the past or future instead of the present moment? Can we trust a mind that creates a reality so far from our dreams that we cannot identify with it?

If I had to choose a team, I would join the Life and my soul team. Things are clear for them; they know perfectly well what is best for me, although sometimes what they offer is painful and causes me anger or a feeling of rejection.

Life and my soul make a dream team. They never give up on me, even when the opponent dominates the ball. Even when losing 10 to 0, they do not give up because they believe a miracle can happen even in the last second of the game. They are opposite the other team, which is speculative and pessimistic.

The current situation feels like a constellation of events working against me. It is is as if the Life and my soul team play against My reality and mind team on a playing field full of obstacles. The teams are playing in heavy rain, making seeing more than a few centimetres ahead difficult. The wind favours My reality and mind team, giving them dominance on the field.

Yes, seen from the playing field, the scenario looks terrible.

But then some player kicks the ball so hard that it rises above the playing field. From the sky, the scene looks different. The chaotic constellation becomes harmonious, forming such a beautiful picture that the amazed ball can only admire it.

When the ball hits the grass again, its perspective has already changed. Chaos is no longer chaos but a masterful plan in which the ball is pleased to participate.

So, I agree to be the ball in the match between Life and my soul with My reality and mind. But I declare that I will help my dream team be in control. And when the adversary steals the ball, I will roll off the playing field so my dream time can retake control.

There is no way to predict the duration or outcome of a game. However, the only thing that matters is playing with passion, without regret or remorse.

Moral

Dare to play the game = live.

Be the ball = surrender; let Life and your soul team make you roll, remove your floor; don’t resist; they are wiser.

Join the right team. Trust Life, trust your soul. Your mind creates your reality, which affects your thoughts; they are in a toxic relationship, so keep them away.

Let Life kick you; the more potent the kick, the higher you will fly. The higher you fly, the more radical your new perspective will be.